<br Ever feel like you are behind and a "day late and dollar short"? Maybe like, Gomer Pyle when he is marching trying to keep up with everyone? I seem to always lose my step when I had a plan made. My step was keeping up the pace of life, living my Purpose and following my Mission Statement, but my mind is having “burps” or something. WHAT’S HAPPENING? Well, right now I am in a "holding pattern", I call it. That means things are not going as fast as I would like and feels so out of control. I know this is good for me being a recovering Control Freak…Yikes!!! I said it, and that does sound like I owned it.
When it gets like this it is way out of my Comfort Zone. I then get in a mode of “Trying to fix it” and I get things in a mess. I want to know, when it gets like this, why I can’t just relax, chill out and trust God? OK! I know, He is silent right now in times like these. I like to see things, knowing where I am walking, like in the light all the time, but when it is dark, Oh My! It gets scary…OK God what are you up to now? I think right now would be a good time to take inventory with myself, maybe answer some questions I’ve had. How am I doing in my Spirit/Soul/Body? In my Spirit, that is my relationship with God. In my Soul, where my Mind/Will/Emotions resides, could use some attention. That is where my flesh patterns, from my old way of life kick in, saying, “I should Worry about this”, then, “I am going to Doubt”!; and “Fear this or that”. You know what living like this has the potential to cripple you. So how is my Body doing? I sure can use some alteration of my food intake, finding out why I eat when I am not hungry and why don’t I find the full level and stop when I am full. Did you know we only should be eating the amount the size of our fist? I am going way beyond that then I beat up on myself. Ever been there? Yeah you have!!! So we all need to work on these things. The price has to be paid and now it’s HERE make a plan and work the plan. Today I have blood work getting ready for my 6 month check up with my doctor. Oh how I hate to get on those scales. I take off all I can and decide the morning of my visit what I can wear that will weight the lightest. All along I need to be working on the day Nurse Debbie says, “Ok! Mrs Mason get on the scales let’s weigh you then I close my eyes and the truth comes out.
Venting is good! And I guess this is what this has been and I feel better. Maybe someone out there in cyberspace is feeling the same way and would like to give me their take. While I am waiting this thing out I have a pretty screen saver that will brighten your day like it does mine. My SIL grows this orchid in her window; it just stays the same and produces the most beautiful blooms to enjoy. I took a picture of it one day. You know what I think it is saying? Bloom Where You are Planted and Wait…even if it is slow and quite, right now….